Friday, May 9, 2014

It Was Mom

Two years ago on May 10, 2012 I wrote a blog post about my mom. With Mother's Day coming up I went back and found the post so I could reread it. As I was reading I decided I wanted to share part of it again. I shared 10 things I gotten or learned from my mom. 

1. I got her soft heart. I may seem tough on the outside but you could say something to me joking and I would leave and cry for hours over what was said and you would never know.

2. I got my tear ducts from her. We cry all the time and over really silly things. TV Shows, books, movies. We are also copycat criers. If we see someone crying we tend to start tearing up too.

3. We both hate confrontation. We are people pleasers. I hate saying no and hate standing up to people and telling them what I really feel.

4. She is really creative. I am not nearly as creative as her but luckily some of it has rubbed off on me. 

5. Thinkers. We are thinkers which can sometimes be a bad thing. We tend to over think things and over analyse

6. Kindness. I am really proud of my mom in this aspect. It is amazing to me she can be so kind to someone who has done wrong to her. I am still working on this but hope to be as forgiving and kind as her but think I do pretty well.

7. Thank goodness I got her drive. Nothing can stop the two of us when we get our heart into something. 

8. I got my moms temper. I remember when I was little when my mom would get mad and I said I would never act like that. I so do though. Because we think so much alike when we get mad, you know it. The few fights we have been in with each other were not pretty. 

9. Courage. Even though I hate confrontation she taught me to have courage to stand up for what I believe in. Courage to be anything I want. Courage to try new things. Courage to become the best me possible. Courage to step off my given road and explore what else I can do. 

10. I got something I like to call Mama Bear Syndrome from her. Typically this syndrome is a parent protecting their children. However with me and my mom we need to protect everyone we see. It is funny actually since we hate confrontation but if we see anyone hurt we quickly stand up for them. 

Love you tons and glad your my best friend.

As I was reading I wanted to pull my hair out at the bad writing and horrible grammar but I love that I still have this. I have learned so much in the past 2 years since I wrote this. I have learned my mom is super woman. As my bonus dad has been going through chemo and the bone marrow transplant she not only has she been taking care of the family but also running a very successful company. She is always doing something. Whether it is cleaning the house or at a business meeting or watching my brother play baseball or traveling all over the world, her number one priority is our family. I talk to my mom at least once day. Usually it is a lot more then just once. When she is out of the country and not just a phone call away I miss her so much.  

I wish you could all she her the way I do. When I look at her I see a beautiful woman who is my rock. She supported me when I made the decision to end my marriage. She cried with me when Koda died. She told me I was wrong when I needed to hear it. She loved me when I needed her most. She was the first person I wanted to talk to when I fell in love for the first time since my divorce. I don't know how she finds the time to do everything she needs to but she does. She balances work and our family perfectly. We are so lucky to have her. 

I also wanted to share something I wrote about 10 months ago. I was at work and had been staring at a computer screen for a few hours and was going a bit stir crazy. I wrote out a list of "Why My Mom is Better then Yours" and sent it to her. I had no idea it would end up loving it as much as she did. 

I am so lucky to have her in my life. Right now my family has just learned that the cancer my bonus dad has been fighting since August of last year is still in his system. That means more chemo and another bone marrow transplant. It is so scary to know that he is back at square one and starting the treatment process all over. The past week has been so emotional. From just him finding a lump on his neck to the doctors telling us the cancer was definitely there. 

I called my mom after we knew what was going on and we cried together. We talked about moving forward with faith and hope. I want to add one more thing to the list of things I have learned from my mom today with this in mind. There are many things my mom teaches me on a daily basis but the one I am grateful for right now is the gift of hope. Through all of this she has had hope and that hope has spread to me and my siblings. We are in a consent state of confusion and worrying about what the future holds and she is been holding our family together with this simple blessing of hope.

Thank you mom for everything you do for our family. You are so strong and I know I am so lucky to call you mom. Thank you for being my biggest cheerleader. Thank you for telling me when I am being a idiot. Thanks for putting up with the constant phone calls. Most importantly thank you for raising me to be a strong Christian. Without the knowledge and hope that comes from the Church I believe my attitude towards life and hardships would be very different. Thank you for teaching me wrong from right and then trusting me enough to let me make my own choices. It was my mom who made me who I am today. I love you more then anything you can say, think or feel. 

This is video entitled "It Was Mom" is a little tribute to all the mothers out there especially the ones in my life. 

Happy Mothers Day!


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Monday, May 5, 2014

Meet Travis

 I have been trying to decide when the time was right to share that I am dating someone. With my mom being such a public figure with her company and blog I didn't want to share any information until I was pretty confident about the relationship. After my divorce I received emails with love and support from many people who follow my moms blog and company. However I also received some messages about how I should have never gotten married so young and how I made marriage look cheap. Luckily the good out weighed the bad substantially during that time. 

Because of this though I didn't want to share anything about me seeing anyone until I knew a few things. First I needed to know that whoever I was seeing was going to be around for a while. I wouldn't talk about someone in such a public way if I didn't know that. Secondly I needed time to see how him and me would work together. I didn't want to jump the gun and tell everyone I was seeing someone and then realize we weren't compatible. Last I needed to know they could handle being in a lot of pictures! That one probably seems so silly but because of my who my mom is we are always taking photos. 

I just really needed to feel secure with someone before I went public with this information. Since my divorce has been final and I started dating again and I have been in a few relationships. However I never felt comfortable enough with any of them that I would share it with anyone besides close friends and family. That is until now. 

Meet Travis

We meet online dating. His profile picture was of him at a Utah football game in a Utah jersey. Now my family are big BYU fans so normally I wouldn't even have engaged in a conversation with a Ute Fan. However something about Travis made me want to talk to him. I loved talking to him from the start. I could tell how much his family meant to him and how hard of a worker he was. 

For our first date we went ice skating. Travis plays hockey so he is really good on the ice. I think he wanted to test me. However I passed with flying colors. I didn't fall down once! It is fun that was our first date because now when Travis has hockey games we get to go back to the same ice rink and he play his games. 

We have been dating a few months now and I adore him. It has been the easiest relationship I have ever been in. My marriage was so hard. It was always a constant battle to try and make it work. Lots of fighting and pulling of hair to just have a semi functional relationship. With Travis I don't have to worry about that. Half the time he knows what I am thinking before I do. He understand how my brain works and we work perfectly together. 

The only "argument" we have had so far was over a game of Monopoly. He totally cheated and won the game so I was quite mad at him. (He swears he didn't cheat but he had a ten year old in the palm of his hands who would trade him anything he wanted. Totally cheating.) Besides him being a cheater at Monopoly it has been so easy with Travis. 

So to help you get to know him here are a few things about Travis:

1. He is the pickiest eater I know. I love cooking and baking so this could be a issue.

2. He is a super hard worker. I really love that he this way. 

3. He has been married before which means we both understand how hard relationships can be and when problems come up we can work on them together.

4. He is 28. Almost 29 in a few weeks. 

5. He has a son. Jaxon is great! He is a little spit fire and is about as picky of a eater as his father. 

(Did I mention he is a Ute Fan?)

6. He loves movies. Doesn't watch much TV though unless it is Survivor or Sports. 

7. He plays hockey. His team is the Fainting Goats. He is also in a Bowling league. 

8. He likes to talk in strange voices. Sometimes it is a british accent. Sometimes it is like a cowboy. Luckily he doesn't do it in public. 

9. He bought the house he grew up in from his parents two years ago and is currently living there. 

10. He is just pretty great if I do say so myself. 

For Easter we went to Blanding, Utah so I could meet his family. I loved meeting his mom and dad because he talks about them all the time. I loved seeing how much his family meant to him because mine means so much to me.

I love spending so much time on the weekends with Travis and Jaxon. Even if we are just playing Mario Kart Wii, which Jaxon loves to do, we have a blast. 

I have two favorite moments with Travis. One happened just yesterday. We were out at my moms for dinner. Jaxon, my brothers and I were in the kitchen eating watermelon and I look in the front room and my mom and Travis are just sitting and having a conversation. My mom is my best friend and to see her smiling and talking to the man I love was such wonderful sight. I couldn't help but smile as the two of the most important people in my life sat there together talking. 

The other one was about a week ago. I had a really hard day. Travis and I live about 30 minutes away from each other so during the week we rarely see each other. It was a tuesday and I just needed him by my side. I called him up at work and asked if he had plans. If not I wanted to come down and see him. He actually said he was planning on coming down to see me because he knew I needed him. (Brownie Points for him!) I told him I would just come down to his place since I have roommates and he doesn't and I just wanted to be able to talk to him alone. 

After work I drove down to his place and from the moment we saw each other everything felt like it was going to be okay. We didn't end up doing anything but talking all evening. We sat on the bed with a blanket around us, holding hands and talking. He would kiss my forehead or check in the middle of a sentence and then just keep talking. We talked about a lot of emotional things and I cried a few tears. I have never felt so much love before then I did right then. I can't even describe the feeling. Thinking about it brings tears to my eyes. I just wanted that moment to never end. One thing Travis does really well is love. He loves with his whole heart and has so much to give. I truly feel so lucky to have him in my life. I am excited to see what the future holds for us. 

If you can't tell he makes me really happy. 

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