Brave

           

      When I decided to start writing I knew that I really wanted to do it in the form of a blog. I wanted to share what I was feeling because many times I felt so alone going through the divorce. I wanted to be there for someone else though my blog. I felt like I didn't have anyone to talk sometimes. More then once I thought to myself that I was the only person in the world who had ever felt like their world was ending and no one understood what I feeling. Luckily I did have a great friend who had been through a divorce and I could talk to but her. I remember asking her things like what she did with the wedding photos and how she managed her emotions during her divorce.  I also could talk to my parents. But most days I just felt alone. 

         I was very apprehensive when I decided this is how I wanted to write out my thoughts. I was worried my ex and his family would read my thoughts and think I was out of line. I was nervous I would be judged on how I handled certain situations. I was anxious that no one would read anything I wrote. I was certain everyone who read it was going to tell me that I was a horrible writer and I should stop before anyone else could read my blog. Greater then any of the those fears though I wanted to share my story.  That if anyone in a similar situation as mine read my words that they would be comforted and not feel so alone. 

       Writing those first couple posts was hard. I spent hours on them. Writing and rewriting them. Making sure they were perfect. A couple of times I wanted to pull the plug and just delete everything I had written because of the knots in my stomach. As I was typing late one night I was listening to some music and the song "Brave" by Sara Bareilles came on. 

"Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave"

         This line spoke to me. I had to be brave and write from my heart. I had to be honest about my feelings. And I started fresh from the begining.  And I wrote until I felt I said exactly what I wanted to say. Then I knew it was time to share it. The second the first post went live I felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest. The next couple days were crazy! I couldn't believe my blog stats. So many people were reading and were contacting me. I received many emails and texts with very sweet messages about what I had written. It meant the world to me that what I had written had been well received. I am so grateful for everyone who has been apart of all of this. Honestly your support has meant the world to me and I want to thank everyone for reading! 

 
        Now every time I am writing a post I turn on a playlist with music that inspires me. "Brave" is on that list. Watch the music video and listen to the song and feel inspired to do something Brave in your life! 

Lyrics to "Brave" by Sara Bareilles

You can be amazing

You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast

Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love

Or you can start speaking up

Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do

And they settle ‘neath your skin

Kept on the inside and no sunlight

Sometimes a shadow wins

But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say

And let the words fall out

Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say

And let the words fall out

Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you

I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you

I wanna see you be brave

Everybody’s been there, everybody’s been stared down

By the enemy

Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing

Bow down to the mighty

Don’t run, stop holding your tongue

Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live

Maybe one of these days you can let the light in

Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say

And let the words fall out

Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say

And let the words fall out

Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Innocence, your history of silence

Won’t do you any good

Did you think it would?

Let your words be anything but empty

Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say

And let the words fall out

Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say

And let the words fall out

Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you

I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you

I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you

I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you 

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